I don't have much to say really. I've been keeping busy. My office is being moved wich i'm worried about. My brother's getting married...i think...idk about it....

It snowed here a LOT and we're expecting more. bleh.

Yes, I'm still alive.

Letter Twenty-Two

I haven't dreamed in a while seems like but usually when I do, it's painful. I sometimes see my grandma there with the world ending on one side and on the other pure bliss. I have always been terrified to die, the world ending and how it ends is more scary then anything ever imaginable. I always woke up crying because maybe she's there really, maybe heaven exists and she's letting me know that. Makes me wonder, you know, if I became a billionaire and helped save countries or even find the cure for aids or something great like that, would that be enough to get me into heaven or is what I have done not enough to forgive. I rather live in heaven or hell then to not exist in the afterlife. Hell is nothing; my soul can't be touched with pain. They say when you go to hell your soul burns for eternity and in heaven it's Shangri-la and for the few lost souls that haven't made it yet walk the earth on a different plain but what if you didn't exist at all? What if when you die? You die nothing after that ending. I have read you my inner thoughts throughout my life but when it comes to death, I shake and tear up the most. What's worse than dying? Dying alone and I don't want to die alone. If you are not the one for me or ever feel that love just isn't enough and that we can't do anything to fix it, just promise me you'll let me know because I don't want to pretend to be happy. I have enough love to brighten the stars and if you don't want that, then I'm not going to give that to you but there will always be part of you in me. Love never dies, it may fade and it may lose touch but it never dies. I have lost some people around me to the "afterlife" and I still love them like they never got taken away. I hope that when I do die, not only will I not be alone, not only will there be that plain to exist more but that the love I have that brightens those stars, fall upon the earth and spread like fire through every single soul and leaves a mark on you all, like a crater crashing down. Don't forget who I was or who I am today.
This message is from who I am going to be after I die. I want you to know that I love you and that I have to say that every chance I get because you never know when our time is going to be up. I miss you...

Love Always,

Daniel

-.from.her.to.me.-

I remember the times we would fight, just for fun, so we could have make-up time. That's when I knew we were the best together and you were weird, more than I was. It still makes me smile knowing there were no times that we were in regret from knowing one another. I feel most of the time we spend going out we would make the couples around us better and maybe even jealous because we were never mean to anybody. I thank God everyday for what he brought to me from day one, that one thing we both were searching for but never seen that it was right there. The first time we held hands, first time we kissed, first time we made love, first time we laid underneath the moon and stars on the hill by the church; those will always remain right here in my heart wanting more of you every day. You are always the light shinning in my eyes when your name mentioned and when I needed you, you were never out of reach; only to find out that you wanted me too is possibly amazing like a shooting star. School, work, time after time I would find you there on my mind thinking of what we mean to each other. I am glad to have met you my love and for you to share all these same feelings makes me happier each passing day. I will never forget the love we shared, not for one second because you Dan have given me life beyond any dream. I Love You!
Those words remain with me today and always will because those are the last words she said to me. Knowing she has changed my life and whatever happens therefore after I know it will be because of what she thought of me, how she looked at me and what she gave me. I will love you too for the rest of my days and I will always keep strong and look forward to that day we are united once again for all eternity. I Love You!

.my.life.story.haunted.

“I guess I should've said something... anything... I mean, for a guy who wants to be a writer, it suddenly seemed like no words had ever been written. But when someone tells you that they somehow stopped missing you, you're pretty much screwed, no matter what you say.”

Quote

“When life comes rushing at you from out of the darkness, who will you choose to face it with? Will it be someone you trust? Will they be wise? And will their love for you help them to guide you to the light? Or will they lose their way in the darkness. Will they make noble choices or will that person be someone untested? Someone new? Life comes rushing at you from out of the darkness. When it does - is there someone in your life you can count on? Someone who'll watch over you when you stumble and fall and in that moment give you the strength to face your fears alone.”

NATASHA

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! I HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY!!! SMILE!!! LIFE IS ALWAYS BETTER WHEN YOU SMILE!!!

<3 DAMON

I don't have anything to say...

I just feel like I should say something...anything... Just let you know I'm still here...

Anymore every time I'm here I end up leaving in tears...


another song on my heart:

We - Kristine Sa

We (plz excuse the mistakes it was typed out in a hurry)
by Kristine Sa

I can still hear your voice on the phone
i can still recognize your cologne
i can identify your low tone
when we're alone
i can still smell your scent on my sheets
the comfortable silence we keep
when we didn't need to speak

I wanna know you can watch me cry
cuz i cared for you even though i try
and every part of me wants to surender my pride

do you still remember what we used to be
what we used to be
what we were to each other
cuz i recall so clearly
we used to be a we

I can still sing the song that was playing
i can recite the prayers i was praying
but no one up there was paying atention at all
because you took back what you saught
without doubt without fear without thought
and i was left here with nothing but knots and tears on the wall

so i wanna know how you can watch me cry
cuz i cared for you even though i tried
and i just want to surender my pride

do you still remember what we used to be
what we were to each oter
because i recall so clearly
we sued be a we
oooh i remember
when we

do you still remember
ooh what we used to be
what we were to each other
cuz recall so clearly
ooh
do you still remember
ooh
what we used be
and what we were each other
cuz i recall so clearly
we used to
be

is it pathetic that i don't feel welcome in my own chat anymore?

Saku

I don't know your name, where you come from or where you life has been but what I do know is part of who you are from what I have seen. It's not even close to who you actually are deep inside but it's enough to know that somewhere around the madness that surrounds you there is a great person. With caosity and the cruel world around us all I feel that you are the hardest person for me to reach. We talk with this understanding that you are you over there and I am me over here but why? Why can't we be Daniel and *****? I write and read and so do you. Idk lately you have been growing even more distant and I feel you slipping away from my grips before I even got to chance to really know who you are or what you'll at least tell me. My name is Daniel Jacob Damon, what is yours?

I love darkness, i love these peeps, i love you and I really love Kristen..

Damon

more thoughts i started a while back but never finished

A lifetime of waiting is always worth the happiness when I’m with you as I wait here standing for you to show me just how to smile again. The saddest part of me is the tears that fall when I think of you inside of my heart. Pounding through a breath of fresh air I take you in always so I know that I’m still alive through this searching. A lonely leaves falls to the ground and surrounds an entire covered ground, that’s where that leaf fits in and belongs, that’s where it was meant to fall before the world and takes its place. This reminds me of us in so many different ways as we have belong to the same tree we both fall at different times setting a world or destiny into place and finding each other on top of them all. This is love at its greatest, being drawn in to a life by a force we will never see or truly understand but its right where we belong; right here in this place surrounded by dreams we see but can’t control.

Short post again

Yup another short post for the time being. My laptop is in need of repair and sitting in this room is like sitting in a freezer. It's so cold!!! T.T I can't feel my toes :/ I've been keeping busy with work and such. That's about it. Whatever happened to Damon? Is he okay?

ttyl

my song for the moment: