I kinda want to post a blog but if i keep going I'm so tired I'll say something stupid!

banana ears!

a few short words

There's a harassment issue going on lately I just wanted to say that I will not have it going on in my chat. Come on guys, you should know better than this. I shouldn't even have to be addressing this.

Recently there's been some complaints about the rules. Though I do reserve the right to change the rules at anytime with out notice, most of the rules will more than likely stay the same. For those of you who like to cuss and use caps sorry those rules are staying. If you have an issue with a rule take it up with me.

Since it's late and I'm having technical difficulties I am going to take my leave now.
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I've had it!

If you have a fcking problem with me don't be a coward and talk about me while I'm gone!!Fcking take it up with me!

People are so petty sometimes.... You know if you really feel all that wronged if you just talked to me like a rational human being then I might apologize. People seem to think I'm some sort of major btch monster. And though there are times when I wonder if it's not true but I'm pretty sure it's not. If anything I'm far too sensitive and care WAY too much what people think so I usually just keep to myself. I have my flaws I know then again who doesn't?

Nelson wonders why I treat him differently than Ethan. They both can be kinda a$$hole-ish. I kept trying to say that I don't really treat them differently but maybe I do and if I do I think I know why. It's because Ethan treats me different... He treats me like a fcking human being with feelings and all that. And when he and I talk it's not just about Darkness. Though it is usually the main reason he at least asks how I am. Meanwhile Nelson just yells and cusses at me. It's fustraiting and it kinda hurts my feelings. I try so hard to be nice to him but it seems so impossible when someone treats you like that.

At the moment I kind of feel a bit betrayed and hurt with my whole chat. It seems like no one really wants me there, like I'm not welcome in my own chat. When people were saying these things that were said earlier... no one stood up for me...except maybe Ethan...and that kinda hurts. I considered some of these people to be good friends but a real friend would stand up for their friends right? Or am I just being too old fashioned again? Is it outdated to stand up for people you care about? Is it outdated to care about other people?

I'm kinda feeling like there's no one I can really trust anymore...first my best friend talks about me behind my back...then my other best friend does the same thing...and what about everyone in my chat?

Just because I can't be online all the time anymore doesn't mean I'm gone. I'm sorry I've been so busy but times are tough and I have to try to get by and I spend a lot of time working and trying to make ends meet. I'll try to be on more.

I'm only human.

short blog

Sorry I don't have much time to type this. I'm going to try to keep it pretty short so I'm not late for work. I really don't want to go but i kinda have to. I'm tired and I don't feel so well. Have I been pushing myself too hard? Prolly not. Though I am really really considering quitting so I could attend evening classes at a university. I don't know if I should though. Right now I don't really have the money to enroll for classes but my parents would help me pay for it. They really want to see me further my education. Maybe the timing just isn't right at the moment. I either should have quit a long time ago or I'm just going to wait till they're about to fire me (probably at my next review). As I'm getting more hours at my second job the more I realize how wrong I am for that job and how much I HATE it. It was different before December. I don't know what changed about the job exactly but I almost liked it there and now I can't stand it. A lot of people have already quit and left that place but I don't know if it's my time to yet, though there are tiems while at work I just want to walk out and not come back. Any advice?