I'm thinking about deleting the blog... I'm also kind of thinking about leaving darkness...xat...I can't hardly stand being in my own chat anymore...
If not for the extreme loneliness I feel I probably would have left a long time ago. I don't really see the point in working on it anymore...wasting my time and energy on things that no one cares about...Stressing out over something that I can't even call mine anymore...I don't even feel welcome there half the time. But don't worry...it's just a thought
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Doubt
Things seem to be getting more and more...complicated today....and I don't know what to do.
As for audio blog thingys...I doubt I will be doing anymore...It seems to be a whole lot more trouble than it's worth.
People tell me they miss the "old darkness" and it really didn't make a lot of since to me at first. Then I thought it was the people a lot of the firt regulars don't come around much anymore. I don't really think that was it either. Or maybe it was a combination of things. I think a main reason why things have changed is because we've gotten so uptight about the rules. In the beginning there were only a few rules. But people kept taking more and more advantage of me and there were more and more complaints until things became like they are now. Sure we still have fun sometimes but not quite like we used to, correct? Like when we were a little more lax about the rules? Sometimes things are so uptight that I just have to leave for a while because it's too stifling for me the one who wrote the rules.
When I wrote the rules I really felt like most of them were needed but are they now?
But if I ease up on the rules a bit people will just take advantage even more. People often go way overboard with things.
I feel like changing a couple rules but I'm not all too sure about it. I don't really think I'm doing it for the right reasons. Not so much because of anyone in particular. I'm just so absolutely sick and tired of people fighting with me about the rules. I've always felt that most of the rules were simple etiquette for a public chat room. Maybe I'm just way too old fashioned... If I do change the rules now I don't think that it will be because that is really how I want my chat to be run but just to quell the arguments. Also it will look like I'm doing it because of one or two particular people. I don't really care what people think of me but I don't want anything to happen to them because of me. For now I will wait and see if I change my mind or not.
But is this even my chat anymore? I'm not so sure.
All I know for certain at this very moment is I'm tired, so very tired.
Sweet dreams.
As for audio blog thingys...I doubt I will be doing anymore...It seems to be a whole lot more trouble than it's worth.
People tell me they miss the "old darkness" and it really didn't make a lot of since to me at first. Then I thought it was the people a lot of the firt regulars don't come around much anymore. I don't really think that was it either. Or maybe it was a combination of things. I think a main reason why things have changed is because we've gotten so uptight about the rules. In the beginning there were only a few rules. But people kept taking more and more advantage of me and there were more and more complaints until things became like they are now. Sure we still have fun sometimes but not quite like we used to, correct? Like when we were a little more lax about the rules? Sometimes things are so uptight that I just have to leave for a while because it's too stifling for me the one who wrote the rules.
When I wrote the rules I really felt like most of them were needed but are they now?
But if I ease up on the rules a bit people will just take advantage even more. People often go way overboard with things.
I feel like changing a couple rules but I'm not all too sure about it. I don't really think I'm doing it for the right reasons. Not so much because of anyone in particular. I'm just so absolutely sick and tired of people fighting with me about the rules. I've always felt that most of the rules were simple etiquette for a public chat room. Maybe I'm just way too old fashioned... If I do change the rules now I don't think that it will be because that is really how I want my chat to be run but just to quell the arguments. Also it will look like I'm doing it because of one or two particular people. I don't really care what people think of me but I don't want anything to happen to them because of me. For now I will wait and see if I change my mind or not.
But is this even my chat anymore? I'm not so sure.
All I know for certain at this very moment is I'm tired, so very tired.
Sweet dreams.
Monday, May 25, 2009
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
madlib bordom madness
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Letter From Camp
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Greetings, Earthlings!
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Sunday, May 10, 2009
I'm planning on doing an audio blog since I got yet another new headset. I got to use the last one once before it stopped working and i sent it back. So look foward to that tough it will probably be weird and full of mistakes but for those who have never heard my voice you get to now! :o oh my. I'm told I sound really really young though. Bleh. oh well
I also plan on changing a few things on darkness the background and a few other things. I think I'm going to add a rule. NO more flippin begging for xats or days. That drives me crazy. We'll see suppose. When i get the time to do it and remember to do it.
I'm also thinking about bringing back Japanese lessons. What do you think? I'm getting a book about teaching Japanese maybe that will help. People often ask me to teach them Japanese so it would probably be easier this way non?
There's a lot going on in my life at the moment though. It seems like everyone around me is getting married and/or having kids! I just found out that two of my cousins are pregnant. One is 18 weeks pregnant and I just found out. A girl i went to high school with just had a baby. Several people that I knew well have gotten married and my own brother's wedding is set for mid July. Workwise, I was just pretty much garenteed another 500 hours for the place I currently work. Also i was told I should apply for a customer service center that is opening up here. I don't really either job is where I should be but I think I'll just stick with what I've got till I find what it is I should be doing.
Though I have no fondness for twilight i love this: (this may not make much sense if you haven't seen the movie but it's funny either way)
c'ya kids
I also plan on changing a few things on darkness the background and a few other things. I think I'm going to add a rule. NO more flippin begging for xats or days. That drives me crazy. We'll see suppose. When i get the time to do it and remember to do it.
I'm also thinking about bringing back Japanese lessons. What do you think? I'm getting a book about teaching Japanese maybe that will help. People often ask me to teach them Japanese so it would probably be easier this way non?
There's a lot going on in my life at the moment though. It seems like everyone around me is getting married and/or having kids! I just found out that two of my cousins are pregnant. One is 18 weeks pregnant and I just found out. A girl i went to high school with just had a baby. Several people that I knew well have gotten married and my own brother's wedding is set for mid July. Workwise, I was just pretty much garenteed another 500 hours for the place I currently work. Also i was told I should apply for a customer service center that is opening up here. I don't really either job is where I should be but I think I'll just stick with what I've got till I find what it is I should be doing.
Though I have no fondness for twilight i love this: (this may not make much sense if you haven't seen the movie but it's funny either way)
c'ya kids
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