If you have a fcking problem with me don't be a coward and talk about me while I'm gone!!Fcking take it up with me!
People are so petty sometimes.... You know if you really feel all that wronged if you just talked to me like a rational human being then I might apologize. People seem to think I'm some sort of major btch monster. And though there are times when I wonder if it's not true but I'm pretty sure it's not. If anything I'm far too sensitive and care WAY too much what people think so I usually just keep to myself. I have my flaws I know then again who doesn't?
Nelson wonders why I treat him differently than Ethan. They both can be kinda a$$hole-ish. I kept trying to say that I don't really treat them differently but maybe I do and if I do I think I know why. It's because Ethan treats me different... He treats me like a fcking human being with feelings and all that. And when he and I talk it's not just about Darkness. Though it is usually the main reason he at least asks how I am. Meanwhile Nelson just yells and cusses at me. It's fustraiting and it kinda hurts my feelings. I try so hard to be nice to him but it seems so impossible when someone treats you like that.
At the moment I kind of feel a bit betrayed and hurt with my whole chat. It seems like no one really wants me there, like I'm not welcome in my own chat. When people were saying these things that were said earlier... no one stood up for me...except maybe Ethan...and that kinda hurts. I considered some of these people to be good friends but a real friend would stand up for their friends right? Or am I just being too old fashioned again? Is it outdated to stand up for people you care about? Is it outdated to care about other people?
I'm kinda feeling like there's no one I can really trust anymore...first my best friend talks about me behind my back...then my other best friend does the same thing...and what about everyone in my chat?
Just because I can't be online all the time anymore doesn't mean I'm gone. I'm sorry I've been so busy but times are tough and I have to try to get by and I spend a lot of time working and trying to make ends meet. I'll try to be on more.
I'm only human.
5 comments:
sakura there are people who stand behind you. You just need to fall back and let us caught you.
sakura this is nick. i know u hae had a very had time in doing this the last time i really talked to you. i wonder why it has really been hard. and now i know. i know what u been through i know how had u hae tried to block out all this non scence its hard i know im doing it now and it sucks i do hate all those back stabbers. and i know what ur going though sakura cause i once helped u. and i know u been though hell but u hae to break through i been nothing then nice to u and tried my absoulute best in keeping this chat alive fun and not as it fades away iv been here a long time and u know it does suck, when no one beleives u when no one is doesnt want it to do what iv expect ted but socks... u got to bear in there...
Nick
what the hell did you say nick? i couldn't hardly understand you.. oh well.. you must be talking about alien ships and beads like last time.. frickin wierdo.. lol.. wait which nick is this? oh well anyways.. that's basically why i left N.. i mean when you hang with ppl too much they seem to get annoying or something idk.. anyways.. you know the expression "you live and learn" in general that applies to everything in life so with your friends and family and this chat room? what have you really learned about them? never give up and always stay as strong as you need to be not as strong as you want to be because in the end i'll remember the greatness in you and leave out all of the rest.. I fcking love Linkin Park lyrics.. they are great!! boo! *karate chop* i'm hyper and you left.. thanks for changing the snowing background.. peace i <3 you.. touch me o.O i'm outty X.x
Damon
socks im always behind u no matter what or no no matter how bad i wanna kill nelson <3
Sakura, Im not going to give out my identy right yet, but im going to tell you, im behind you 110%. If you ever need anyone to talk to, you can talk to me ok? i dont need to know everything, and i see you dont really care for talking about things going on in the chat sometimes. you do still have people behind you 100% and im one of them. If anything ill handle the others.
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